After a few weeks of considering and fighting with my feelings and my mind and bringing these emotions before God, I have decide to become honest person. I am taking off my armor out putting down my sword. Going out side the castles walls and crossing the moat.
For the last year or I have been guarding myself so much because of the fear of getting hurt again and not being able to deal with it. Today it hit me, maybe that the wound should have heal by now and all that I was doing is pushing people way so prevent of getting hurt. It seems that I thought that if I don’t let any close to me I can get hurt, but I never realized that if no get close to I will always be alone.
I will try to guard my heart but let people in once in a while. And let God be my protector and let Him be my doctor if my heart needs healing.